Thoughts after reflection
As one grows older we start to look back, and hopefully not get trapped in the mirror.
I have added in my books, the names of women who have loved me and shaped my life, and a couple of these women have altered my life in so many ways.
Sharon, Ruth, Carol, and Cathy my cousins and friends. These women are not romances, well I do love them, but family. In a family you can love someone on a level that is very basic to a foundation we use to grow up in. And these as well as other's helped form me as a young man, which of course turns into an old man.
There are others both men and women, some still here and others who are gone, and here I will mention the Nichols girls Pam and Ellen, but that is another story, who are gone and thought of kindly often.
Do we have regrets, we are but human, and to answer NO would probably be a disservice, to us and those who have touched our lives.
I have been married which of course impacted me and my path. I have 5 children - Terri and Dawn, and then Katie, Nat, and Dillon.
Their growing up, and the interactions with them have affected me in so many ways that only another parent could understand.
Watching a child grow up and make decision some bad, but mostly good, gives you a feeling of seeing a flower progress from a seed to a full bloom and that being a beautiful flower, for the girls, and in the case of the boys a tree, possibly a giant redwood.
But we also have our other decisions along the way, all having an effect and how that impacted me and my thoughts today. There is Bonnie Baker, who was a Home Econ teacher in Springfield Missouri, She is now married and has moved, but if I had been smarter, and more romantic, there would have been a book of romance from her that would have been a delight to read. Sue Williams in Wisconsin, a Lab director. We could not decide to break from where we both were at the time, our roots being in different areas of the country. Screwed up another possibility. The last writings I have from her was that she thought that I understood her more than she did herself, unfortunately, not enough to get us together, I miss her and her Teddy Bear, and hope she has done well.
When we talk about decisions, we also have timing that affect us and our decisions.
We see birth, granddaughters, death some unfortunate some tragic, all impacting our lives.
So I write, put down thoughts, think about where I am and go on.
I add this not as a boast, but as a thought to these women in my lives who have made me who I am today. Be it good, bad or other.
So you may see that we all make our paths, develop and grow and become who we are today.